expectations.

there's nothing stupider that expecting things from people.
they are for sure going to fail to live up to those expectations, every time.
it gets to a point when you don't even feel disappointed anymore
but it gets.. frustrating.

and sometimes you have to wish for somethings,
sometimes it's just becomes necessary to believe something is coming.
and i close my eyes and hope. and expect this is going to be different somehow.
this time, this person, this thing, it's gotta work. but it doesn't.
and you just add more people to the "not expect anything from them" list.

the thing with that list is, we don't ever learn. and that's the worst kind of disappointment.
the "i should have known better that get my hopes up".
so you go right back to choosing some random guy to distract yourself,
put too many things into that because hell, you have to put'em somewhere,
and that's how the fucking list reaches a thousand lines.

and then the person i least expected actually keeps his word,
and i learn nice surprises are still out there.